alice in wonderland

i often wake up and find myself repeating the next:

"the Lord is my sheppard i shall not want"

"because You are with me i shall not fear"

this i keep repeating out loud till im calm again

it's because i often wake up with a heavy heart and a negative burden on my mind

and if i dont take the time to encourage myself with those scriptures then call me despressed

negative thoughts keep you at bottom, they crush you and kill all the good that is left inside

what is the point of loving someone when yourself is burned to ashes

when you have nothing to give and when you dont even know how to love anymore

i quitely assume that this has come to an end

i open my sad eyes wishing to go asleep and never wake up again

call me alice in wonderland

it's midnight and my eyes wonder off to the seeling

it's like my mind goes on lock

no dreams no sleep just laying here scared of all thoughts

some days i am closer to truth, some days it seems far far away
some days i think i understand, some days i am just so lost

thoughts of failure, self-worth, can I fix what is broken?
do i even know what is broken?

the heart is wound yet not healed and my aches not filled with care

a tear touches another tear and now my mind still not woke up

love that left in the middle of my journey

my feelings and emotions are in dilemma with a mind still restless

i look at things at my own way and have a hard time to see my own failures

you have to shook me up before i see

and the worst has come to happen before i plee guilty

even tho my intentions are pure doesnt mean i can do what ever i want

trying to reclaim what i lost

i open all my windows and let light shine through

now my mind set itself free

Psalm 23
The Lord is my shepherd,
I shall not want

He makes me lie down in green pastures.

He leads me beside still waters

He restores my soul.

He leads me in paths of righteousness

for His name's sake.

Even though I walk through the valley

of the shadow of death,

I fear no evil

for You are with me

Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me.

Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me

all the days of my life

and I shall dwell in the house of the

Lord forever.