You are for me

this blog is inspired by the song "You are for me" by Kari Jobe

this song means more to me then just another song

what get's me the most and is a burden on my heart is people have no clue what they're singing anymore.

if they would only know the deepnis of the words they sing, 

lives would change every second, 

you can trade sorrow into joy, 

you would find rest by proclaiming He is Lord, 

sickness would be healed and He would calm your raiging sea and comfort you in His arms.

this is what keeps me going and what drives my worship

i close my eyes and proclaim that He is my refuge, 

my Rock when im exhausted, 

My hidingplace when i fear, 

my strenght when im weak, 

through the valley of death He is with me, my Healer when im sick,

 my Friend in lonelynes, 

He is for me not against me,

 He will never forsake and loves me through my faults

i cry over the fact that people take worship as just a routine thing in church but it's so much more!

it's speaking over your life that nothing can come against you because God is in you 

and when life does hold you down it's the one and only thing that can breake every chain!

it's when the holy spirit moves and does his work

it's when God pours out His love, reaches out his hands and to have the one on one time that He desperatly wants with His children. 

so don't take worship for granted, it's the most precious time you can spend with him!

we sing "i know that You are for me

You will never forsake me in my weakness

I know that you have come now 

even if to wright upon my heart
to remind me who You are"

this means in everthing i do, You is for me.

when everything and everybody turns against me, You are still for me

when trouble times seems to hold life against me, You are for me

when my sin turns me against myself, You are for me

when im broken and crying out for you in my darkest hour, Your are for me

He will never leave us by ourselves

He will never turn His back against us

He will never forsake me when i fail in my weaknesess

he has come to be for me even if it's just to remind me

who He is and what He has promised us!

declare that He is always with you

declare that He is faithful

declare that because he is with you, i will not fear

declare that only His name brings miracles

declare that He is your provider, your Strongtower, your Shield, your Comfoter, 

your Happiness, your Hero and Savior, your King and Majesty, Your maker and healer,

declare that He is simply your Everthing!

and keep declaring this over and over again till you feel His power running through your body!

worship is drinking from the river of life, He is the Fountain of life

to soak in His presence is what keeps me alive!

(vanaf 3:55 )

alice in wonderland

i often wake up and find myself repeating the next:

"the Lord is my sheppard i shall not want"

"because You are with me i shall not fear"

this i keep repeating out loud till im calm again

it's because i often wake up with a heavy heart and a negative burden on my mind

and if i dont take the time to encourage myself with those scriptures then call me despressed

negative thoughts keep you at bottom, they crush you and kill all the good that is left inside

what is the point of loving someone when yourself is burned to ashes

when you have nothing to give and when you dont even know how to love anymore

i quitely assume that this has come to an end

i open my sad eyes wishing to go asleep and never wake up again

call me alice in wonderland

it's midnight and my eyes wonder off to the seeling

it's like my mind goes on lock

no dreams no sleep just laying here scared of all thoughts

some days i am closer to truth, some days it seems far far away
some days i think i understand, some days i am just so lost

thoughts of failure, self-worth, can I fix what is broken?
do i even know what is broken?

the heart is wound yet not healed and my aches not filled with care

a tear touches another tear and now my mind still not woke up

love that left in the middle of my journey

my feelings and emotions are in dilemma with a mind still restless

i look at things at my own way and have a hard time to see my own failures

you have to shook me up before i see

and the worst has come to happen before i plee guilty

even tho my intentions are pure doesnt mean i can do what ever i want

trying to reclaim what i lost

i open all my windows and let light shine through

now my mind set itself free

Psalm 23
The Lord is my shepherd,
I shall not want

He makes me lie down in green pastures.

He leads me beside still waters

He restores my soul.

He leads me in paths of righteousness

for His name's sake.

Even though I walk through the valley

of the shadow of death,

I fear no evil

for You are with me

Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me.

Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me

all the days of my life

and I shall dwell in the house of the

Lord forever. 

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Lock your eyes upon Jesus

lock your eyes upon Jesus 

look full in His wonderfull face

hear Him wisper through the storm

feel His embrace when all of you is torn

i wanna share this vision of me that keeps playing in my head

im serounded by an ocean that has no end.

im walking on water, on bare feet and a white dress.

im all alone and as i look around all i can see are waves of water.

now all of the sudden the ocean starts rising up and begins a war between light and dark.

its like a hudge tornado serounding me.

at this point there is nothing i can do anymore.

so i stop and close my eyes.

with a raging heart beat i force myself to keep breathing.

i spread my arms wide open and turn my head up to heaven.

i open my eyes and there i look full in His wonderfull face.

i instantly lock my eyes upon Jesus.

i will never look the other way cause if i do, fear will take over and that means: i will drown.

now the sea is still in heavy battle and there is no way of surving.

but im standing in this circle that has never been so calm and peacefull.

nothing can come close, no wave can come against me, it's unbelievable!

so i start to sing a melodie, still having my eyes locked upon His eyes!

and as i still have my arms wide open i start to sore with Him upon the wind.

carried on eagles wings serounded by angels im now high above the storm, safe in His gaze.. as long as i have my eyes locked upon His eyes i will fear no evil!

When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned, and the flame shall not consume you - Isaiah 43:2


now what this means to  me:

life is a storm. 
not always but it's a constant battle untill we are in heaven

i think we all walk on water through life

and we need to turn our eyes upon Jesus cause if we dont

we will drown

can you please imagine my vision..

place yourself in that circle and think about everything that is trying to make you drown

now turn your eyes up to heaven

your now safe in His gaze..

nothing can come against you

dont let the world, people, situations tear you apart

cause there is a greater God that has promised us to

keep us safe and to sore with us above the storm!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zWkFcMu8qUE

give it all to Jesus

my dad always sings this to me when i feel like i can't go on anymore
i remember laying in bed in tears fighting against darkness but then when he held me in his arms
and sang this to me i felt the peace and comfort of Jesus coming over me
i wanna share this with you cause if it helps me it can help others..

Are you tried of chasing pretty rainbows

Are you tired of spinning round and round

Wrap up all the shattered dreams of your life

and at the feet of Jesus lay them down

Give them all, give them all, give them all to Jesus

Shattered dreams wounded hearts broken toys

Give them all, give them all, give them all to Jesus

And He will turn your sorrow into joy

He never said you would only see sunshine

He never said there would be no rain

He only promised us a heart full of singing

That's the very thing that once brought pain

Give them all, give them all, give them all to Jesus

Shattered dreams wounded hearts broken toys

Give them all, give them all, give them all to Jesus

And He will turn your sorrow into joy

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XrvKY1nJupU

endure

Everybody has hearts desires

mine is to sing life to the nations

and to become the woman after the heart of God!

i wish it was this easy..

thoughts come to mind that causes confusion

and emotions breake lose that sets ur heart up for illusion

it's a constant battle between heart and mind

my mind cries out desperately in times when my heart is weak

but im tired of this endless roller coaster between happiness and sorrow

so i close my eyes and take a deep breath

and think about all that's left.

if i live an unhappy life then what's the point of living it?

if i can but keep on believing, i can endure this moment of what i know in my heart to be true

i have come close to sharing myself, never really revealing anything to anyone.

feelings are invisable and when i dream reality shatter before my very eyes.

at times the glimmer in my eyes slowely dissapears

but within my heart a fire burns without any fears!

The bible says God has the best in store for us

so i remind myself as memories turn to dust